tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9471590872600003132024-02-09T00:23:44.350+09:00My Resting PlaceMy Resting Placehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18094408443777822507noreply@blogger.comBlogger50125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-54283398987825901532019-04-04T11:50:00.001+09:002019-04-04T11:50:29.354+09:00If you're happy and you know it~~~My parents 35th anniversary.<br />
Checking the photos of them together I realized I managed to make their life enjoyable.<br />
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My parents provided evrything we need and more when we were young.<br />
Eventhough we were not rich, we always had good food, nice clothes and many toys to play with.<br />
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So all I ask for future is the same.<br />
I do not want to be rich.<br />
If my family happy and healthy, if I can give them comfortable life, I am happy.<br />
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I am happy right now!!!<br />
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<span style="color: magenta; font-size: x-small;">しあわせですよ。。。</span>My Resting Placehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18094408443777822507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-63807923067445937102014-09-27T16:12:00.001+09:002014-09-27T16:12:15.537+09:00EXO-K_중독(Overdose)_Music Video<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="270" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/TI0DGvqKZTI" width="480"></iframe>Chocolaierhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17465795802077503194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-78663924878789868462012-10-23T16:05:00.004+09:002012-10-23T16:07:43.090+09:00I am 28 year old~~~ desu<span style="color: #8e7cc3;">Thirty is approaching and I am still nothing.</span><br />
<span style="color: #8e7cc3;">My main problem is I don't want to be something.</span><br />
<span style="color: #8e7cc3;">I really want a house even though that's more for my mom.</span><br />
<span style="color: #8e7cc3;">Except from that I just want to graduate with respectable grade.</span><br />
<span style="color: #8e7cc3;"><br />I read my new year resolutions from Jan. I can't cross out anything yet.</span>
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<span style="color: #8e7cc3;">December is coming soon. Now I remember why I never had NY resolutions.</span><br />
<span style="color: #8e7cc3;">Because I never fulfill them.</span><br />
<span style="color: #8e7cc3;">Hahaha.... what a loser!!!</span><br />
<span style="color: #8e7cc3;">I will try to have one cross out after new year.</span><br />
<span style="color: #8e7cc3;">I really need self control and stronger will power. *sigh*</span><br />
<span style="color: #8e7cc3;"><br />My other half, Tomohisa had a very busy year.</span>
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<span style="color: #8e7cc3;">He had 2 dramas, 2 singles, 1 album, 1 collab-singlle, 1 concert tour, 1 documentary and 1 radio show in a year.</span><br />
<span style="color: #8e7cc3;">And here I am still calling him my other half shamelessly.</span><br />
<span style="color: #8e7cc3;">He is more like my other 3/4 because I am not even half of him in every way.</span><br />
<span style="color: #8e7cc3;"><br /><br />Woahhh I sound so depressed. Must be my stomachache writing.</span>
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<span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">kinishinaite. daijoubu desu.</span></span>My Resting Placehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18094408443777822507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-38804426780175553162012-01-02T00:02:00.000+09:002012-01-03T00:10:29.532+09:00It's been so long!!!<span style="color: #ffe599; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">10 years ago today, I came to this little island called Singapore.<br />17 years old, full of dreams, naive and proud young girl :)<br />It has been 10 years...<br />fulfilled some of old dreams, found a few new dreams, still a little naive with unchanged Pride, no more young woman ;)<br /><br />Should I start something new like I did in 2002.<br />Should I change job? </span><br />
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<span style="color: #ffe599; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Should I move to another country? <br />10 years in this little island is too long. <br /><br />I don't regret how I spent those years although I didn't accomplished much.<br />I made mistakes, big ones and bigger ones but I am what I am now from all the things I went through.<br />I want to thanks all the people I met in this 10 years.<br />Some still my best friends, some not in contact, some hate my guts :D<br /><br />I think I changed most when I got to know him. His philosophy to life made me a clam person that I am now.<br />Thank you Tomo for the strength and path you show me in my depressing days.</span><br />
<span style="color: #c27ba0; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: x-small;"><br />Let's work for better 2012 ne...</span></div>Chocolaierhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17465795802077503194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-240803493088484602011-12-12T12:20:00.001+09:002011-12-12T12:33:07.854+09:00Resolution ka!!<div style="color: #674ea7; font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">
<span style="font-size: x-small;">N<span style="font-size: small;">ew Year is fast approaching.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">When I see other people crossing out their last year resolutions, I feel jealous.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I didn't have one for last year or previous years.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I will be 28 coming year and I don't have any goal or dream yet. Am I a loser in life?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">So... I will make resolution for 2012.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Very first thing</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">1) to be able to communicate in Japanese by end of 2012.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">2) send my parents on 5 Star Cruise Holiday</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">3) At least get 1 A in exam</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">4) get back my ideal weight ie. 52kg</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">5) take less than 10 days leave</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">6) go to Japan for concert of a)Tomo b)NEWS c)AAA d)Mr. Children</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">I hope I can fulfilled at least 4 of those 6.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">Jyaaa let's see which I can crossed out in Dec 2012.</span></div>Chocolaierhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17465795802077503194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-46099489037846121372011-10-07T12:05:00.000+09:002011-12-12T12:17:39.693+09:007th October 2011<div style="color: #e06666;">
<span style="font-size: small;">4 days after my birthday...</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Toma's birthday... </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">The day my dream of watching 6-nin NEWS concert was destroyed...</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Tomo and Nishikido left NEWS.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Remaining 4 will carry on as NEWS because they don't want NEWS to disappear.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Why Tomo has to be the one who leave? </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I know he has his reasons but still WHY???</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I naively thought that I knew him so well. Ha! I didn't know shit...</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">We will forgive him when he told us his reasons and KYA-ing with starry eyes. *sigh*</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I wish 4-nin new NEWS all the best and NEWS fans won't make me scared to check on them.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">After all I am traitor's supporter...</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">Soredemo Daisuki dayo Tomo</span>Chocolaierhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17465795802077503194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-13512083935143071432011-09-06T15:06:00.006+09:002011-09-06T15:45:03.217+09:00Times are flying by...<span style="font-family: arial;font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >When they say time flies, it is only metaphorically.<br />Time doesn't fly, silly. Time teleport!<br />It still feels like I met Tomo yesterday. But it already been 4 months and 14 days.<br />A lot happened between these months.<br />I went back to my home country after 3 years, passed all my exams and started another semester, doubted Tomo for his sincerity, almost given up on NEWS, lost nice amount of weight.<br />Of all those thing why did I doubt Tomo????<br /><br />I knew all along that if I lost my trust in Tomo, my life would be meaningless.<br />I am not a teenage emo kid who gonna kill herself for an idol.<br />What I mean is, he said very meaningful things, things you can learn from, things that made you rethink about your life, your action, your goals and your dreams.<br />If I can't trust him anymore, what will happen to all these I followed.<br />When someone preaching these values was lying through his teeth, what should I do?<br />You can say he is just one guy. There are other people who are truthful.<br />But you don't know Tomo. He practice what he preached. If he truly lied, he was a damn good liar.<br /><br />I had all those conspiracy theories in my head. Tomo is actually a very cunning guy.<br />He masked his true self with all those righteous words. When he got tired of all fame he will show his true self.<br />But after all that trip and photos, I am scared about my theories coming true.<br />It hurts when the thing you believe in what just a sham. My pride hurts. My brain hurts. </span><span style="font-family: arial;font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >My heart hurts. </span><br /><span style="font-family: arial;font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" ><br />When you truly love someone, you will forgive their mistakes. Is it really true?<br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 153);font-size:78%;" >I will continue to love him but I won't forgive.<br />Yurusanai!!! dakedo aishiteru <3 </span></span>My Resting Placehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18094408443777822507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-2083380587619645322011-04-27T13:56:00.005+09:002011-04-27T14:43:03.136+09:00Dreams do come true<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">23rd April 2011</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">I finally met him in person. Everything passed by in a flash. Everything is still like a dream. He is really handsome and nice just like everyone said.<br /><br />Arrr I really don't want to write. I feel like my feelings will disappeared after I write down everything. I still can't believe I met him, I went to his concert, I sang Happy Birthday to him. Tears are still flowing when I think about it.<br /><br />First of all, they had a very fierce thunderstorm starting around 3:30pm. We went there early to collect tickets and buy goods. But we were stuck in the rain. Lots of people came early for goods too. We lined up for concert goods in narrow place. After we got what we wanted, we went out for dinner. We were back just before 7pm and security was very strict for camera. Stage settings were very nice and flags with dragon logo were pretty. I felt like I was in some kind of palace.<br /><br />When the light dimmed and music start playing, everybody rushed to the railing. I didn't expect that so I was a beat late. Being short and two-bodied layer away from railing, I opt out to watch just standing near the seats. He didn't sing much live. But I didn't really care. He danced with all his might. He spoke very clear and good English. Things went by very fast from here. I am going to kept those memory only in my heart. One thing for sure, we didn't have any eye contact. Not even once, I caught his eyes. I didn't expect I will though I wished so much. When I think about it now, I can't even recall all the songs he sang. I almost cried when he sang Saigo no Love Song. One girl in front of me cried.</span><br /><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br />開演のアナウンス響いてる</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >きっと君は来ないだろう</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >約束した頃は こんな日が来るなんて</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >思わなかった僕たち</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >The curtain call announcement resonates</span><br /><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >I’m sure you didn’t come back out<br />Back when we promised about how we<br />Didn’t believe this day would come<br /><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >大切な夢のために頑張っている 君の姿が好きで </span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >「どんな時も僕が応援する」なんて</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >言ってたくせして 旅立つ君のこと責めた</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br />I loved that figure of yours when you tried your best for the sake of your precious dreams<br />I said “I’ll support you no matter when”<br />It was a habit, so I blame you as you set out on a journey<br /><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >恋なんてしないほうが 幸せな気がした</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >そんなラブ・ソングに 胸の奥が熱くなる</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >何回も君と聴いた その言葉が突き刺さる</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >ひとりぼっちじゃ 悲しすぎる歌だね…</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br />I think I would have felt happier if I haven’t had fallen in love<br />That love song makes my heart warmer<br />Time and time again when I listened with you, the words pierce me<br />The song is too sad to listen to all alone…<br /><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >初めて会った日を思い出す</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >今日と同じコンサート</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >斜め前の君は 僕と目が合うたび</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >笑いかけてくれたね</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br />I remember the day when I first met you<br />It was concert like today's<br />You were diagonally in front of me and our eyes met<br />You laughed at me, didn’t you?<br /><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >叶えたい夢のために遠い街へ 君が行くこと聞いて</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >「離れてても二人変わらないよ」なんて</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >誓っていたのに 夢見る君のこと責めた</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br />I heard you went to a far away town in order for your dreams to come true<br />“Even if we’re apart, we won’t change”<br />We vowed that but, I blame you for seeing dreams<br /><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >恋なんてしないほうが 幸せな気がした</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >そんなラブ・ソングに 身体中が震えてる</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >どうやって君を忘れ 今日からどう生きてゆく</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >この先ずっと こんな歌は聴かない…</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br />I think I would have felt happier if I haven’t had fallen in love<br />That love song shakes my whole body<br />How am I going to forget you, how am I going to live from today<br />From now on, I’m not going to listening to this song…<br /><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >ほんとはもっと言いたいことや</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >確かめたかったことがあったのに</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >今さら遅すぎる 何もかも全部</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >拍手の波の中 僕だけが飛び出していた ひとり</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br />Truthfully, there was more that I wanted to say and<br />Things I wanted to confirm<br />Now it’s too late, everything and anything<br />In the sea of applause, only I am leaping out, alone<br /><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >恋なんてしないほうが 幸せな気がした</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >そんなことないよと 胸の奥が叫んでる</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >何回も君と聴いた ラブ・ソングが遠くなる</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >ひとりぼっちじゃ 悲しすぎる</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" >それでも僕は 君に会えてよかった・</span><span style=";font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br />I think I would have felt happier if I haven’t had fallen in love<br />My hearts screams that it’s not true<br />Time and time again when I listened with you, the love song feels distant<br />Being alone is too sad<br />Even so, I’m glad that I met you</span><br /><br />But every second with him was Heaven. Every air I breathed in have his present. I believe I can talk to him one day. I can touch his hand one day. After all, DREAMS DO COME TRUE.<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);font-size:85%;" >Tomo, imademo, korekaramo, itsudemo aishiteru kara aimassho ne</span>My Resting Placehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18094408443777822507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-46682309429916075282011-02-01T18:32:00.002+09:002011-02-01T18:45:39.838+09:00Love Song<span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="color: rgb(51, 153, 153);">I want to shout out loud if possible that I love Tomo with all my heart.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 153, 153);">I was wavering so much from younger ones to younger ones.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 153, 153);">Now I realized that nobody can replaced Tomo. No matter how young, handsome, talented they are.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 153, 153);">Tomo has passion for his work, love for his fans and gratitude to his profession.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255);font-size:78%;" ><br />I am proud to love him and called him my Idol. He really is an Idol. MY IDOL</span></span>My Resting Placehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18094408443777822507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-12437295799958666962011-01-26T15:15:00.002+09:002011-01-26T15:25:16.024+09:00Conflicted "I"<span style="font-size:100%;">First post of the 2011. woot woot...<br />Best NEWS of the year goes to "I am meeting Tomo in April". YAYYYYY<br />Worst NEWS "I failed two subjects last semester". Yayyyy<br /><br />Back to title, I feel so conflicted between letting go and clinging on.<br />I really want to let go but if I let go, maybe I might not want to catch it again.<br />If I don't catch it again, my existence will become meaningless.<br />But clinging onto it is also extremely tiring.<br /><br />This problem make me don't want to study. I can't afford to fail any more.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">Sometime (almost all the time) I want Tomo's determination. See you in April Darling</span>My Resting Placehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18094408443777822507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-54974070152786634212010-09-07T14:39:00.002+09:002010-09-07T14:48:22.452+09:00Bored and bored<span style="font-family: georgia;font-size:85%;" >I feel like doing nothing...<br />I have to study, work, exercise. I can't seem to have mood to do those.<br />Having stuffy nose doesn't help either.<br />It's a relieve that I don't have school today.<br />I need something exciting to happen in my life.<br />What should I do? hmmm....<br />All the slow songs playing from my Ipod is not really helping the mood. *sigh*<br /><br />I really like this song... SHINee - Last Gift</span><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 153, 102);font-size:85%;" >Was it yesterday when things started going to amiss?<br />Where did it all go wrong exactly?<br />My heart can’t let you go…<br />Is it really the end?<br /><br />It’s not easy for me like my farewell greeting<br />My heart won’t become mine to control<br />I guess I’ll have to make an indefinite decision to forget you<br />So I can bear with it all<br /><br />The ring I placed on your finger<br />Returns to my hand cold (I can’t let you go)<br />I received my heart back in return<br />My LAST GIFT<br />Is this separation…</span>My Resting Placehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18094408443777822507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-435405681440016222010-09-03T13:47:00.003+09:002010-09-03T13:59:59.890+09:00what I feels like doing now<span style="font-size:85%;">First and foremost, I want to sleep now kekeke<br />I really want to watch my little guys performing...<br />but I can sense chaos just by a glance.<br />I think I am too old to join in that fantastic nightmare.<br /><br />Wow!!! I just want to do only this two things.<br />I think I had been enlightened.<br />But I feels good to not have any wants or desires.<br /><br />I guess that's why I am getting further away from my friends???<br />They have too many worries that I feel not really important.<br />And they think that I have everything.<br />I don't have everything. I just don't want everything.<br />Not wanting everything aka contentment make your life peaceful and relaxing.<br /></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 255);font-size:78%;" >But, but I really want to meet Tomo in person. *heart* sometimes heart is stubbron kekeke</span>My Resting Placehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18094408443777822507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-45154577623193554622010-07-02T13:42:00.002+09:002010-07-02T13:53:53.678+09:00Couples Argh....<span style="font-size:85%;">Now I realize that our ancestors were wise.<br />They left words of wisdom for us. One of those is "Never go between Husband and Wife."<br />Going between means you don't side with one when they are quarreling *like me*.<br />I was naive or stupid or whatever, and try to reason with my mom and dad.<br />I wasn't even finished talking why I thought whichever one of them was right, they were giggling and teasing each others.<br />Just really argh.... for me. I won't never ever gonna justified when they quarrel again.<br /><br />Oh btw I move to a new office and I am freaking loving it.......<br /><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">Hell yeah!!!! One in a Million is damn good. I love it more than MOLA & Loveless. Tomo daisuki </span><br /></span>Chocolaierhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17465795802077503194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-28012130761146990702010-03-12T18:23:00.002+09:002010-03-12T18:34:18.791+09:00Truely my resting place, this is...<span style="font-size:85%;">I am watching some little guys tomorrow.<br />My first time seeing people I love LIVE.<br />How I wish I can see him really soon too.<br /><br />I don't like the things going around THE GROUP...<br />I get the feeling someone really trying to do harm to the Group.<br />All the solo activities and solo cons.... hmmmm....<br />Is JE trying to tell us something? Like if we don't spend more effort on the Group, they are gonna shelf them???<br />I am going crazy, I know...<br />It's just that sweden-pair releasing another mini-album making me more nervous.<br /><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">Even so, there is Joe in Ashita hahaha I know I am lame...</span><br /><br /></span>My Resting Placehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18094408443777822507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-1337095123046882052009-12-18T13:39:00.005+09:002009-12-29T15:33:00.645+09:00Another Entry; Another Tear<span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:78%;" >Today, where we were shooting, it has started to snow<br />It’s been so long since I’ve seen snow.<br /><br />When I was still in elementary school, I used to try to catch the snowflakes in my palm and try to make out the different patterns with the naked eye.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">I was so serious about that (laughs)</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">I used to be serious about so many things at that age.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">Everything that I saw with my eyes or felt, I would seriously respond to.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">Frankly however, now that I have gotten used to this job, I’ve become less serious about many things.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">Now, I'm only serious towards things that I really like.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">music, dancing, acting</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">The more I'm sure about the things I like to do,</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">the more I'm ignorant towards things that I'm not interested in.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">Also, because I've experienced it before,</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">I do not feel touched at alot of things already.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">However, today, as I was shooting in a town near Tokyo, there was a child wearing one of my concert T-shirts, as if he was saying “I’m wearing Yamapi’s T-shirt!”. He was smiling at me with a brilliant smile.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">Thank you!</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">It made me really happy!</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">I guess he must have gone to one of my concerts, and after watching him, I went on a sudden emotional high.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">Even though I’ve experienced many things already and my emotions have become less intense, however I’ve realized that in places where I haven’t yet been, there are people who have been supporting me at the sidelines.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">At the same time, after experiencing this, I ponder. Where do I stand?</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">And I still don’t really know.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">However, that child that looked genuinely pleased to see me.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">So that anyone who watches me from now on will just let out a smile, I want to give these people new touching or really great music and show them what I feel is the best.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">I feel like this has been written really messily.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">From now on, I’ll try everything!</span><br /><br />(translated by pikira)<br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;">Amongst the fans of every famous person, we, Pi's fans are the luckiest and most spoiled.<br />Do you want proof?<br />He wrote nikki everyday for 6 years. Vol 2261. Freaking 2261 days... AND THAT"S FOR US.<br />He broke up with his rumored GF cuz she is playing us.<br />He do Solo concert to thanks us. (even some will argue that's for him. I would say, "You don't know him well. He don't have to do solo con to earn money. Don't have to practice days and nights for all the dance." Got it.)<br />Whatever he's doing, he worries what we will think about it.<br />Never lied to us. Even for tiniest things, he will keep quiet if he don't want to say the truth. But NO LIES.<br />If he see something beautiful, he will remember us first. (Don't think so? Read his 2261 entries!)<br />He treasure us. Everyone can see that, feel that, notice that. (You still don't? Go to his cons. Watch his cons. See how he interact with the fans?)<br />Still don't think so? Re-read the above nikki. Can you understand his heart?<br /><br />I am so glad that I bought a T-shirt for 55$. I might be breaking my rules and out of my principle but am I glad that I bought.<br />He really is attached to that T-shirt. Well what do you expect, his face is on that. XDDD</span>Chocolaierhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17465795802077503194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-78093418598239174042009-10-27T14:44:00.002+09:002009-10-27T15:03:44.694+09:00Soulmate desu ka...<span style="font-size:85%;">I saw one question in web.<br />Do you believe in soul-mate?<br />Let me tell you a story.<br />When first mankind were formed they have two brains, two hearts, two heads like two peoples combined. They are so strong and wise. They can win even gods. The gods scared of mankind strength spliced them into two peoples. Then became human as we are. When two correct halves met, they can overthrow the gods. Unfortunately, there is one person when the gods try to split him, one half has two brains and the other got two hearts. Since that day the half-with-two-brains work hard to win Gods but he couldn't because he is just a half. But his brains make him so proud that he couldn't care to look for his other half. The half-with-two-hearts kept looking for his other half because he couldn't do anything without it but he never found his half because he is too dumb.<br />End of story...<br /><br />Which half am I? Shiranai yo</span>Chocolaierhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17465795802077503194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-37172140293169749392009-09-17T10:14:00.003+09:002009-09-17T10:51:52.237+09:00How many times my heart has to break<span style="font-size:85%;color:#33cc00;">It is almost official. He is dating her.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#33cc00;">Eventhough I tried to be reasonable, my heart just won't listen.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="color:#33cc00;"><em>Kataomoi</em> is always painful. More painful when you are longing for the 'STAR'.</span></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#33cc00;">When not just any star but brightest and shiniest star.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#33cc00;">The star everyone waiting with their plam open wide to be fall on. </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="color:#33cc00;">What I wanted is just for that 'STAR' to be shining with all it might over everyone <em>no ni</em></span></span><br /><em><span style="font-size:85%;color:#33cc00;"></span></em><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#33cc00;">Do I want the 'STAR' to shine and burn alone for everyone sake? </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#33cc00;">Of course not! That is the reason I am sufferring now, I think.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#33cc00;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#33cc00;">Battle of reasons and feelings. </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#33cc00;">Whichever side wins battle field is always ugly.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#33cc00;">It will left damage and dead bodies. </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#33cc00;">We want more for everything. Never contenting.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#33cc00;">We know reasons yet we scream treason.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#33cc00;">It gave its all. We search for more.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#33cc00;">Now it found its happiness, we realized what we've lost and feeling sad.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#33cc00;">So tell me now and tell me true...</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#33cc00;">Now this fault lies in who...</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">'STAR' is not wrong. I wish for his happiness. And I will keep on loving forever.</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">Kono kataomoi ni owaru ga nai no nara</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">Sore demo ii</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">Kono kataomoi wo mamotte hoshii </span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">mada nani mo dekinai koi nandesu</span>My Resting Placehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18094408443777822507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-35539852082196647162009-09-09T09:26:00.002+09:002009-09-09T09:39:54.712+09:00Oh My Pi !OMP!<span style="color: rgb(204, 153, 51);font-size:85%;" >Can someone die from happiness or cuteness?<br />Well, I almost did... BB ep9 has such a cute start.<br />I can't stop grinning after 5 mins into it.<br />I am scared to watch further. They said depressing and irritating later.<br />What should I do ne?<br />Even though I really hate indecisive guys, Naoki's kindness pulled me in.<br />Two more weeks? I don't want it to finish. Best romance drama of the year or last 5 years.<br />Thank you, FujiTV, for this incredible summer. </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255);font-size:78%;" >Tomo, kono tanoshii natsu de arigatou!</span>Chocolaierhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17465795802077503194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-7013071271715626382009-08-28T10:11:00.006+09:002009-08-28T10:25:42.928+09:00He's back in the game!!!!!!!!!!!!!<em><span style="font-size:85%;">Yup, you read it right. He is back in the game.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">Maybe becuz of that kiss. But def. he is back.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">He was in three of four serveys conduct via internet.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">AND above 5th position for all. XDDDD I told you, he is back.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">Strangely enough, I dreamt of Massu last night.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">I wonder why ne...</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">He was cute nonetheless. And some pouting of his lips too.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">Did I like Massu that much in my unconscious mind?</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">Anyway today is a marvelous day...</span><br /></em><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#ff9966;">Tomo, daisuki da yo</span>My Resting Placehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18094408443777822507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-45838593568659064252009-08-18T14:19:00.003+09:002009-08-18T14:28:52.860+09:00D*mn<span style="font-family:arial;"><span style="font-size:85%;">Can my english get any worse? </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">I told my Boss this morning "Oh I didn't SAW you on the bus"</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">My Boss just looked at me with his eye wide open. </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">So shameful that I could die on the spot. </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">OMG if I recalled again, I felt like dying again.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">This is gonna haunt me at least a month.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">My English is not good but I should know that much, right?</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">Who say "I didn't saw you." or "You didn't knew that you weren't supposed to said that?"</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">Arggggggggg..... Luckily there is no school today. Otherwise I will die, definitely sure...</span></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#ffff66;">Tomo... doushite</span>My Resting Placehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18094408443777822507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-41199407958079132242009-08-07T10:04:00.003+09:002009-08-07T14:11:09.442+09:00New life? New death?<span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;">I am gonna be damn busy from next week onward. i.e if I do things I should do.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;">My new life of student is starting. </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;">I hope my current life of working adult won't die from exhaustion. </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;">Every morning, I am gonna need someone (i prefer Tomo if possible) whispering Dertermination, Perservation to my ears.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;">I will overcome this 5 years. With Tomo by my side.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;">Hope I don't piss all of my family and friends off by trying to remain myself sane.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"><span style="color:#33ccff;">Jya raigettsu ni aimasho ka</span><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"></span>My Resting Placehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18094408443777822507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-57454848961479204812009-07-08T14:14:00.002+09:002009-07-08T14:32:07.793+09:00Majide???<span style="color: rgb(204, 255, 255);font-size:85%;" >I really can't believe my father think something wrong with my head.<br />What are his reasons???<br />I broke up with my boyfriend; I don't look for new boyfriend;<br />I am trying to lose weight; I am learning to speak Japanese;<br />I like one of Japanese Idol; I am dreaming of marrying him (ok this may BE the main point)...<br />But seriously Dad. I am not going insane over one break up.<br />There are a lot of single women in the world.<br />If all of them are lonely, I don't mind joining them at pub drowning my loneliness<br />than cleaning up after the kids or waiting for THE man of the house to arrive "drunk".<br />That I will pass.<br />I don't mind smiling at other people's kids and buy them ice-cream.<br />But I DO mind scolding my kids and washing their ice-cream stained shirts.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 255, 255);font-size:85%;" ><br />There is no way I can tell my dad all these. and -120% he will convince I am sane.<br />WHATEVER....<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 102);font-size:78%;" >Tomo, dou shiyou ka</span><br /></span>Chocolaierhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17465795802077503194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-39703552938904136212009-07-02T12:09:00.002+09:002009-07-02T12:25:49.003+09:00!!!Tomodachi wa Taisetsuna-mono desu!!!<span style="font-size:85%;">I just connected back with the cluster of my ex-schoolmates.<br />Wonder how much they have change. I, myself, change big time.<br />Firstly, broke up with my boyfriend who everyone thought was my soul mate, other half or whatever.<br />Next, no guys beside me like it used to be, to many of their surprise.<br />And, I'm learning Japanese.<br />And, my whole family is here.<br />And, I am fat...<br />I want to see how much all this can surprise them.<br />Maybe not much not 'cuz these aren't shocking, but mainly 'cuz they don't care about me that much anymore.<br /><br />I had expected that anyway.<br />I was the one who came out from their cluster and went away with my ex-bf.<br />I was naive back then or in romantic way "blindly in love".<br /><br />Still I am same old romanticist. So I am happy with "my littele Pi&I world".<br />But I am naive no more. I am gonna treasure all of them truely this time. Maa... that's what he'd like me to do...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 255);font-size:78%;" >Yoku Ganbatta sou na... Otsukaresamadesita</span>Chocolaierhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17465795802077503194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-10943296844093258312009-06-21T02:28:00.002+09:002009-06-21T02:44:12.862+09:00another Hært-brǣk<span style="font-size:100%;">Yes... another heart-break... but it will heal with his sweet smiles and repeated words<br />but right now, my heart is in pieces<br />because of that holding-hands<br />because of that bright smiles<br />because of that happy faces<br /><br />my life was boring lately but...<br />I would still choose boredom over this anytime, anywhere, any circumstance<br />how long will it take this old wounded heart to heal this time<br />I am not scared cuz I know he will make it healed again...<br />He will make it jumping with excitement again...<br />As long as he is with me it will heal over and over again...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(204, 0, 0);font-size:85%;" >iroiro na koto arigatou korekara mo yoroshiku</span>My Resting Placehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18094408443777822507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-947159087260000313.post-91424846785405968432009-05-06T23:40:00.011+09:002009-05-07T00:36:34.350+09:00oooYou are the place my life beginsxxx<span style="line-height: 115%; color: rgb(255, 204, 255);font-family:";font-size:85%;" >Looking at his photo, a song came to my mind.</span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 255);">Flying without Wings by Westlife. My fav band from my teens. </span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 255);">I still love them. Love their voice. Love the words in the songs.</span></span><span style=";font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style=";font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">Everybody's looking for that something<br />One thing that makes it all complete<br />You'll find it in the strangest places<br />Places you never knew it could be</span><br /></span><span style="line-height: 115%; color: rgb(255, 204, 255);font-family:";font-size:85%;" >This song, really touch my heart since the first time I heard.</span><span style=";font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">Some find it in the face of their children<br />Some find it in their lover's eyes<br />Who can deny the joy it brings<br />When you've found that special thing<br />You're flying without wings</span><br /></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:78%;" ></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 255);">But when I found him, I can relate to the song better than ever.</span></span><span style=";font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:78%;" ><br /></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:78%;" ></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><span style="font-size:78%;">Some find it sharing every morning<br />Some in their solitary lives<br />You'll find it in the words of others<br />A simple line can make you laugh or cry</span><br /></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 255);">I really thought I can find it in my solitary life. I did.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 255);">Well not a line, just a word of "Konbachiwa" can make me fly now.</span></span><span style=";font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">You'll find it in the deepest friendship<br />The kind you cherish all your life<br />And when you know how much that means<br />You've found that special thing<br />You're flying without wings</span><br /></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 255);">I found it in friendship of course. Or more like comrade. </span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 255);">We were not best of friends but we share same heart beat. </span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 255);">He introduced them to me.</span></span><span style=";font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><span style="font-size:78%;"></span></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><span style="font-size:78%;">So, impossible as they may seem<br />You've got to fight for every dream<br />Cos who's to know which one you let go<br />Would have made you complete</span><br /></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 255);">I will definitely fight for my dreams. Biggest dreams of meeting him. </span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 255);">Tell him how he changed my life, a few others' lives on his way of his own life.</span></span><span style=";font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><span style="font-size:78%;"><br />Well, for me it's waking up beside you<br />To watch the sunrise on your face<br />To know that I can say I love you<br />In any given time or place</span><br /></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 255);">I won't expect this to fulfill. But I can say how much I love you anytime anywhere.</span></span><span style=";font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><span style="font-size:78%;">It's little things that only I know<br />Those are the things that make you mine<br />And it's like flying without wings<br />Cos you're my special thing<br />I'm flying without wings<br /></span></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 255);">Yes, he is my special thing. Thinking about him alone can make me soar high.</span></span><span style=";font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><br /><i><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">"And you're the place my life begins</span></i><br /><i><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">And you'll be where it ends"</span></i><br /></span><span style=";font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I'm flying without wings<br />And that's the joy you bring<br />I'm flying without wings</span><br /></span><span style=";font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style="line-height: 115%; color: rgb(255, 204, 255);font-family:";font-size:85%;" >I feel so far from him. I AM far from him but never in my heart.<br />Right now, I feel like I am very very far away from him.<br />Is he feeling down? Last time he had some internal struggle, I feel terrible too.<br />Is he alright?<br />You must fight on, Dear. Now is the time testing your strength.<br />I miss him so much. Time is testing my strength too.<br />But you are my special thing, I'm not gonna let you go.</span><span style=";font-family:";font-size:85%;" ><br /><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 153);font-size:78%;" ><i><span style="line-height: 115%;font-family:";" >Ima made, Kore kara, Itsumademo, zutto hanasanai kara... Soba ni itekurete hoshii</span></i></span>Chocolaierhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17465795802077503194noreply@blogger.com0