New 'I' or Damaged 'I'

I kind of break up with my first and only Bf...
Will I become new I or damaged I???

I am learning another new language, but the stress is high...
Will I become better I or stress-out I???

I look for my peace in Tomohisa-shi...
Will I become peacful I or fanatic I???

I try to look things in new light...
Will I become insightful I or weird I???

I am trying to change my habits...
Will I become perfect I or different I???

After all, who am I???