~Atashi no Yuuki wa Anata da~

On the first of March, Ryo-chan got into car accident.
He is the one caused the accident which injured 60 years old woman in the car in front.
Johnny banned him from driving for 6 months.
How glad I am it was nothing more than that.
And today, someone called me. The same someone who called me on my 24th birthday.
Was I happy? I think I was.
Am I happy? I think I am.
Should I? No, I shouldn't.
Everything should be over now. I shouldn't have any feeling.
I shouldn't feel even sadness.

Ne Tomo, doushite ii no?
Yappari, I want someone to care about me.
Kowai wa. Atashi hitori ja.
Yuuki wo okurete kudasai.

... I am amazed by myself ...

Untill now everybody said I am so carzy over him...
But I always thought I have a control over myself.
Little did I know is I don't have control at all...
Today at work, fire alarm went off suddenly...
At that moment, only thing I can think of is to check LJ ^^
"I want to know what is the latest news of him before I die", that was what I am thinking.
Tell me and tell me again; I am crazy... beyond redemption... now I finally realise...
By the way, that fire alarm was false alram. Damn...

!Now you know why I love him so much!

Konbachiwa!

Today I went boxing.

I'm more tired than usual!

Even though I only practised till Round 5 of the "15 minute" set boxing routine
I'm already so tired that I'm nearly out of breath.

Compared to 2,3 years ago, this time is really much more tiring!

It's so frustrating.

I must work harder. (Laugh)

Even though the intention is very simple, I hate to lose therefore I must work hard.

I must practise until at Round 5,
my face does not change colour and still able to do the Hallelujah~ Chance!


And also with this kind of simple intention, that's why I'm able to continue till the 2000th entry, I think.

It's also because all of you are reading my diaries.


Arigato ne


Then there's the staff san who help to take care of my original entries

From time to time, I always could not complete my original entries within the stated time frame

Thanks for not giving up on me all these years!

The reason why those who came to read my diaries is due to the fact that they have come to know about me through the various magazines that I had appeared, the various drama that I had acted in.

From there, it was the first time that you know about my existence, isn't that so.

Therefore, a lot of people are looking at me.

There are doubtful times.

I do not know.

But everyone seems to know about me.

Therefore I want to work even harder.

Taking with me, the thankful feelings towards everyone, working harder.

Those of you who have always been supporting me I would want to look at everyone in the eyes and say from the bottom of my heart

Thank you for your continual support.
Hence, from now onwards, please stay by my side. (Laugh)


I will give my best!
From now onwards, please support xxxx too.

This is his diary entry for 2000th volume. He is someone you can rely on, don't you think so.
Things like that make my love bigger and bigger for him.
How I wish he know.
On other side I think he knows, he knows there are people like me who love him dearly.

No work and No News

Lately, he is very free.
No work for him yet, I think. (at least no news leak to fandom yet)
I am kind of worry.


What if he got depressed? Feel like his popularity decreasing?
Seems like I am the one got depressed instead ^_^


He is strong. He said that himself and his personality shows it too.


Ja this will be my nikki for today.
I have no topic too. (laugh)

Hello... get a life please

She is very whiny and annoying...
I love my job and my working environment...
if she don't like it, that is her problem...
she said her parents are rich, her bf is rich, her bro is rich...
dose she still need to work for her school fees if she fine that job miserable...
she keep whining she wants to quit...

Arigatou Ima

Since morning this song keep playing in my head...
I want to dedicate this to Tomohisa...
Every words represent my thoughts...

NewS - Arigatou Ima

Anata ni deaeta kara
Asa no hikari ga mabushikute
Me wo tojite mo
Kokoro no naka ni sashikonde kuru
Yasashisa ya nukumori wo
Itsu no ma ni ka wasurete ita yo
Ikiru yuuki to kibou wo kurete
Kokoro kara anata arigatou

Anata ni mitsumerarete
Umare kawaru kono inochi arukidasu yo
Atarashii ashita sagashitsuzukete
Kanashimi ya kurushisa ni
Mou makenai yo anata ga ireba
Ikiru yuuki wo oshiete kurete
Kokoro kara anata arigatou

Yasashisa ya nukumori wo
Itsu no ma ni ka wasurete ita yo
Ikiru yuuki to kibou wo kurete
Kokoro kara anata arigatou

"A New Year has come"

Happy New Year to me...
I has the worst new year eve of my life...
(when I was looking forward to pass the time with everyboy, everybody has their only plan, which didn't include me...
My parents argued just nice on midnight...
My only joy, Pi, I couldn't connect to his show. ohhhh what can be worst)
but I am hoping to pass coming year as the best year so far...
Well, seems like it is gonna be, coz I am getting better at being optimistic...
This year, I won't make plan which include others...
I will find happiness even if I will be alone... And I am really getting better and better...
I will see in 31.12.2009 if I can fulfill my wish...
Akemashite Omedetou minna...