Another Entry; Another Tear

Today, where we were shooting, it has started to snow
It’s been so long since I’ve seen snow.

When I was still in elementary school, I used to try to catch the snowflakes in my palm and try to make out the different patterns with the naked eye.

I was so serious about that (laughs)

I used to be serious about so many things at that age.

Everything that I saw with my eyes or felt, I would seriously respond to.

Frankly however, now that I have gotten used to this job, I’ve become less serious about many things.

Now, I'm only serious towards things that I really like.

music, dancing, acting

The more I'm sure about the things I like to do,
the more I'm ignorant towards things that I'm not interested in.

Also, because I've experienced it before,
I do not feel touched at alot of things already.

However, today, as I was shooting in a town near Tokyo, there was a child wearing one of my concert T-shirts, as if he was saying “I’m wearing Yamapi’s T-shirt!”. He was smiling at me with a brilliant smile.

Thank you!

It made me really happy!

I guess he must have gone to one of my concerts, and after watching him, I went on a sudden emotional high.

Even though I’ve experienced many things already and my emotions have become less intense, however I’ve realized that in places where I haven’t yet been, there are people who have been supporting me at the sidelines.

At the same time, after experiencing this, I ponder. Where do I stand?

And I still don’t really know.

However, that child that looked genuinely pleased to see me.
So that anyone who watches me from now on will just let out a smile, I want to give these people new touching or really great music and show them what I feel is the best.

I feel like this has been written really messily.
From now on, I’ll try everything!

(translated by pikira)

Amongst the fans of every famous person, we, Pi's fans are the luckiest and most spoiled.
Do you want proof?
He wrote nikki everyday for 6 years. Vol 2261. Freaking 2261 days... AND THAT"S FOR US.
He broke up with his rumored GF cuz she is playing us.
He do Solo concert to thanks us. (even some will argue that's for him. I would say, "You don't know him well. He don't have to do solo con to earn money. Don't have to practice days and nights for all the dance." Got it.)
Whatever he's doing, he worries what we will think about it.
Never lied to us. Even for tiniest things, he will keep quiet if he don't want to say the truth. But NO LIES.
If he see something beautiful, he will remember us first. (Don't think so? Read his 2261 entries!)
He treasure us. Everyone can see that, feel that, notice that. (You still don't? Go to his cons. Watch his cons. See how he interact with the fans?)
Still don't think so? Re-read the above nikki. Can you understand his heart?

I am so glad that I bought a T-shirt for 55$. I might be breaking my rules and out of my principle but am I glad that I bought.
He really is attached to that T-shirt. Well what do you expect, his face is on that. XDDD

Soulmate desu ka...

I saw one question in web.
Do you believe in soul-mate?
Let me tell you a story.
When first mankind were formed they have two brains, two hearts, two heads like two peoples combined. They are so strong and wise. They can win even gods. The gods scared of mankind strength spliced them into two peoples. Then became human as we are. When two correct halves met, they can overthrow the gods. Unfortunately, there is one person when the gods try to split him, one half has two brains and the other got two hearts. Since that day the half-with-two-brains work hard to win Gods but he couldn't because he is just a half. But his brains make him so proud that he couldn't care to look for his other half. The half-with-two-hearts kept looking for his other half because he couldn't do anything without it but he never found his half because he is too dumb.
End of story...

Which half am I? Shiranai yo

How many times my heart has to break

It is almost official. He is dating her.
Eventhough I tried to be reasonable, my heart just won't listen.
Kataomoi is always painful. More painful when you are longing for the 'STAR'.
When not just any star but brightest and shiniest star.
The star everyone waiting with their plam open wide to be fall on.
What I wanted is just for that 'STAR' to be shining with all it might over everyone no ni

Do I want the 'STAR' to shine and burn alone for everyone sake?
Of course not! That is the reason I am sufferring now, I think.

Battle of reasons and feelings.
Whichever side wins battle field is always ugly.
It will left damage and dead bodies.
We want more for everything. Never contenting.
We know reasons yet we scream treason.
It gave its all. We search for more.
Now it found its happiness, we realized what we've lost and feeling sad.
So tell me now and tell me true...
Now this fault lies in who...

'STAR' is not wrong. I wish for his happiness. And I will keep on loving forever.
Kono kataomoi ni owaru ga nai no nara
Sore demo ii
Kono kataomoi wo mamotte hoshii
mada nani mo dekinai koi nandesu

Oh My Pi !OMP!

Can someone die from happiness or cuteness?
Well, I almost did... BB ep9 has such a cute start.
I can't stop grinning after 5 mins into it.
I am scared to watch further. They said depressing and irritating later.
What should I do ne?
Even though I really hate indecisive guys, Naoki's kindness pulled me in.
Two more weeks? I don't want it to finish. Best romance drama of the year or last 5 years.
Thank you, FujiTV, for this incredible summer.

Tomo, kono tanoshii natsu de arigatou!

He's back in the game!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yup, you read it right. He is back in the game.
Maybe becuz of that kiss. But def. he is back.
He was in three of four serveys conduct via internet.
AND above 5th position for all. XDDDD I told you, he is back.

Strangely enough, I dreamt of Massu last night.
I wonder why ne...
He was cute nonetheless. And some pouting of his lips too.
Did I like Massu that much in my unconscious mind?

Anyway today is a marvelous day...

Tomo, daisuki da yo

D*mn

Can my english get any worse?
I told my Boss this morning "Oh I didn't SAW you on the bus"
My Boss just looked at me with his eye wide open.
So shameful that I could die on the spot.
OMG if I recalled again, I felt like dying again.
This is gonna haunt me at least a month.
My English is not good but I should know that much, right?
Who say "I didn't saw you." or "You didn't knew that you weren't supposed to said that?"
Arggggggggg..... Luckily there is no school today. Otherwise I will die, definitely sure...

Tomo... doushite

New life? New death?

I am gonna be damn busy from next week onward. i.e if I do things I should do.
My new life of student is starting.
I hope my current life of working adult won't die from exhaustion.
Every morning, I am gonna need someone (i prefer Tomo if possible) whispering Dertermination, Perservation to my ears.
I will overcome this 5 years. With Tomo by my side.
Hope I don't piss all of my family and friends off by trying to remain myself sane.

Jya raigettsu ni aimasho ka