Hello... get a life please

She is very whiny and annoying...
I love my job and my working environment...
if she don't like it, that is her problem...
she said her parents are rich, her bf is rich, her bro is rich...
dose she still need to work for her school fees if she fine that job miserable...
she keep whining she wants to quit...

Arigatou Ima

Since morning this song keep playing in my head...
I want to dedicate this to Tomohisa...
Every words represent my thoughts...

NewS - Arigatou Ima

Anata ni deaeta kara
Asa no hikari ga mabushikute
Me wo tojite mo
Kokoro no naka ni sashikonde kuru
Yasashisa ya nukumori wo
Itsu no ma ni ka wasurete ita yo
Ikiru yuuki to kibou wo kurete
Kokoro kara anata arigatou

Anata ni mitsumerarete
Umare kawaru kono inochi arukidasu yo
Atarashii ashita sagashitsuzukete
Kanashimi ya kurushisa ni
Mou makenai yo anata ga ireba
Ikiru yuuki wo oshiete kurete
Kokoro kara anata arigatou

Yasashisa ya nukumori wo
Itsu no ma ni ka wasurete ita yo
Ikiru yuuki to kibou wo kurete
Kokoro kara anata arigatou

"A New Year has come"

Happy New Year to me...
I has the worst new year eve of my life...
(when I was looking forward to pass the time with everyboy, everybody has their only plan, which didn't include me...
My parents argued just nice on midnight...
My only joy, Pi, I couldn't connect to his show. ohhhh what can be worst)
but I am hoping to pass coming year as the best year so far...
Well, seems like it is gonna be, coz I am getting better at being optimistic...
This year, I won't make plan which include others...
I will find happiness even if I will be alone... And I am really getting better and better...
I will see in 31.12.2009 if I can fulfill my wish...
Akemashite Omedetou minna...

no news of NEWS' Captian

No nikki today. I hope he is ok.
I am feeling a lot better today. If that means he is feeling better too???
I will see tomorrow. If it is, we are connected by telepath. cool huh!

Update of my mind

Recently, something is wrong with him. He seems so depress or unhappy or uncertain.
I don't know what make him unhappy but I know that make me unhappy too.
I feel like crying everytime I see his ??sad?? face.
Every night I feel very uneasy and hoping tomorrow he will be alright.
As days go by and he still seems troubled, my mind hitting bottom.
I really did type in his name where I have to type in commend to my PC.
I did a lot of mistake these days. I make more mistakes this few days compare to last few months.
Nobody will believe me if I say all this is because of him.
Why?
Because we don't know each other at all.
He is someone from far away and only chance he can know me is if he happen to read my letters from millions of letters he get everyday.
But I love him more than I know him. Much much more than that...

Ok, that's all for today update of my mind.

In short, my mind is full of him... (^_^)

New 'I' or Damaged 'I'

I kind of break up with my first and only Bf...
Will I become new I or damaged I???

I am learning another new language, but the stress is high...
Will I become better I or stress-out I???

I look for my peace in Tomohisa-shi...
Will I become peacful I or fanatic I???

I try to look things in new light...
Will I become insightful I or weird I???

I am trying to change my habits...
Will I become perfect I or different I???

After all, who am I???

Can this be love???????????

Can someone love someone without really knowing???
Can someone break up with his girlfriend for that someone???
Is it love???
Or is it crush???
Or is it lust???

I feel like I am in love...
but in love with invisible guy...
He is everywhere yet he is nowhere...
He is so near to me yet so far away...
He know everything yet he know nothing...
He is everything to me yet he still is everything to me... <3

Anata no koto sukidesu...
Anata wo aishiteru desu...