Friday, December 5, 2008

no news of NEWS' Captian

No nikki today. I hope he is ok.
I am feeling a lot better today. If that means he is feeling better too???
I will see tomorrow. If it is, we are connected by telepath. cool huh!

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Update of my mind

Recently, something is wrong with him. He seems so depress or unhappy or uncertain.
I don't know what make him unhappy but I know that make me unhappy too.
I feel like crying everytime I see his ??sad?? face.
Every night I feel very uneasy and hoping tomorrow he will be alright.
As days go by and he still seems troubled, my mind hitting bottom.
I really did type in his name where I have to type in commend to my PC.
I did a lot of mistake these days. I make more mistakes this few days compare to last few months.
Nobody will believe me if I say all this is because of him.
Why?
Because we don't know each other at all.
He is someone from far away and only chance he can know me is if he happen to read my letters from millions of letters he get everyday.
But I love him more than I know him. Much much more than that...

Ok, that's all for today update of my mind.

In short, my mind is full of him... (^_^)

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

New 'I' or Damaged 'I'

I kind of break up with my first and only Bf...
Will I become new I or damaged I???

I am learning another new language, but the stress is high...
Will I become better I or stress-out I???

I look for my peace in Tomohisa-shi...
Will I become peacful I or fanatic I???

I try to look things in new light...
Will I become insightful I or weird I???

I am trying to change my habits...
Will I become perfect I or different I???

After all, who am I???

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Can this be love???????????

Can someone love someone without really knowing???
Can someone break up with his girlfriend for that someone???
Is it love???
Or is it crush???
Or is it lust???

I feel like I am in love...
but in love with invisible guy...
He is everywhere yet he is nowhere...
He is so near to me yet so far away...
He know everything yet he know nothing...
He is everything to me yet he still is everything to me... <3

Anata no koto sukidesu...
Anata wo aishiteru desu...