Love Song

I want to shout out loud if possible that I love Tomo with all my heart.
I was wavering so much from younger ones to younger ones.
Now I realized that nobody can replaced Tomo. No matter how young, handsome, talented they are.
Tomo has passion for his work, love for his fans and gratitude to his profession.


I am proud to love him and called him my Idol. He really is an Idol. MY IDOL

Conflicted "I"

First post of the 2011. woot woot...
Best NEWS of the year goes to "I am meeting Tomo in April". YAYYYYY
Worst NEWS "I failed two subjects last semester". Yayyyy

Back to title, I feel so conflicted between letting go and clinging on.
I really want to let go but if I let go, maybe I might not want to catch it again.
If I don't catch it again, my existence will become meaningless.
But clinging onto it is also extremely tiring.

This problem make me don't want to study. I can't afford to fail any more.
Sometime (almost all the time) I want Tomo's determination. See you in April Darling

Bored and bored

I feel like doing nothing...
I have to study, work, exercise. I can't seem to have mood to do those.
Having stuffy nose doesn't help either.
It's a relieve that I don't have school today.
I need something exciting to happen in my life.
What should I do? hmmm....
All the slow songs playing from my Ipod is not really helping the mood. *sigh*

I really like this song... SHINee - Last Gift

Was it yesterday when things started going to amiss?
Where did it all go wrong exactly?
My heart can’t let you go…
Is it really the end?

It’s not easy for me like my farewell greeting
My heart won’t become mine to control
I guess I’ll have to make an indefinite decision to forget you
So I can bear with it all

The ring I placed on your finger
Returns to my hand cold (I can’t let you go)
I received my heart back in return
My LAST GIFT
Is this separation…

what I feels like doing now

First and foremost, I want to sleep now kekeke
I really want to watch my little guys performing...
but I can sense chaos just by a glance.
I think I am too old to join in that fantastic nightmare.

Wow!!! I just want to do only this two things.
I think I had been enlightened.
But I feels good to not have any wants or desires.

I guess that's why I am getting further away from my friends???
They have too many worries that I feel not really important.
And they think that I have everything.
I don't have everything. I just don't want everything.
Not wanting everything aka contentment make your life peaceful and relaxing.

But, but I really want to meet Tomo in person. *heart* sometimes heart is stubbron kekeke

Couples Argh....

Now I realize that our ancestors were wise.
They left words of wisdom for us. One of those is "Never go between Husband and Wife."
Going between means you don't side with one when they are quarreling *like me*.
I was naive or stupid or whatever, and try to reason with my mom and dad.
I wasn't even finished talking why I thought whichever one of them was right, they were giggling and teasing each others.
Just really argh.... for me. I won't never ever gonna justified when they quarrel again.

Oh btw I move to a new office and I am freaking loving it.......

Hell yeah!!!! One in a Million is damn good. I love it more than MOLA & Loveless. Tomo daisuki

Truely my resting place, this is...

I am watching some little guys tomorrow.
My first time seeing people I love LIVE.
How I wish I can see him really soon too.

I don't like the things going around THE GROUP...
I get the feeling someone really trying to do harm to the Group.
All the solo activities and solo cons.... hmmmm....
Is JE trying to tell us something? Like if we don't spend more effort on the Group, they are gonna shelf them???
I am going crazy, I know...
It's just that sweden-pair releasing another mini-album making me more nervous.

Even so, there is Joe in Ashita hahaha I know I am lame...

Another Entry; Another Tear

Today, where we were shooting, it has started to snow
It’s been so long since I’ve seen snow.

When I was still in elementary school, I used to try to catch the snowflakes in my palm and try to make out the different patterns with the naked eye.

I was so serious about that (laughs)

I used to be serious about so many things at that age.

Everything that I saw with my eyes or felt, I would seriously respond to.

Frankly however, now that I have gotten used to this job, I’ve become less serious about many things.

Now, I'm only serious towards things that I really like.

music, dancing, acting

The more I'm sure about the things I like to do,
the more I'm ignorant towards things that I'm not interested in.

Also, because I've experienced it before,
I do not feel touched at alot of things already.

However, today, as I was shooting in a town near Tokyo, there was a child wearing one of my concert T-shirts, as if he was saying “I’m wearing Yamapi’s T-shirt!”. He was smiling at me with a brilliant smile.

Thank you!

It made me really happy!

I guess he must have gone to one of my concerts, and after watching him, I went on a sudden emotional high.

Even though I’ve experienced many things already and my emotions have become less intense, however I’ve realized that in places where I haven’t yet been, there are people who have been supporting me at the sidelines.

At the same time, after experiencing this, I ponder. Where do I stand?

And I still don’t really know.

However, that child that looked genuinely pleased to see me.
So that anyone who watches me from now on will just let out a smile, I want to give these people new touching or really great music and show them what I feel is the best.

I feel like this has been written really messily.
From now on, I’ll try everything!

(translated by pikira)

Amongst the fans of every famous person, we, Pi's fans are the luckiest and most spoiled.
Do you want proof?
He wrote nikki everyday for 6 years. Vol 2261. Freaking 2261 days... AND THAT"S FOR US.
He broke up with his rumored GF cuz she is playing us.
He do Solo concert to thanks us. (even some will argue that's for him. I would say, "You don't know him well. He don't have to do solo con to earn money. Don't have to practice days and nights for all the dance." Got it.)
Whatever he's doing, he worries what we will think about it.
Never lied to us. Even for tiniest things, he will keep quiet if he don't want to say the truth. But NO LIES.
If he see something beautiful, he will remember us first. (Don't think so? Read his 2261 entries!)
He treasure us. Everyone can see that, feel that, notice that. (You still don't? Go to his cons. Watch his cons. See how he interact with the fans?)
Still don't think so? Re-read the above nikki. Can you understand his heart?

I am so glad that I bought a T-shirt for 55$. I might be breaking my rules and out of my principle but am I glad that I bought.
He really is attached to that T-shirt. Well what do you expect, his face is on that. XDDD